Deeper Meaning of Love
I am grateful for this year of learning a deeper meaning of love. As my husband navigates unimaginable daily pain from cancer, I have been humbled to my knees as I let go of control and learn to love in a new way. The tapestry of our marriage is being stretched and reshaped, as we learn to adjust and live outside of the traditional marriage box. When Daniel left home two years ago to deal with his cancer on his own, for the longest time, I thought I must be the most awful wife if my husband with cancer would leave me.
Whatever sense of self-worth I had left me when my husband did. I was starting at zero again. The soul searching I've done to learn how to swim in a stormy ocean has caused me to throw out decades of outdated spiritual and emotional weight and only keep in the survival raft of things that would truly keep me afloat - no matter what. I am finding that God is enough. It's as if I died and could only take my Soul with me. I get...